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Saturday, July 23, 2011

When to Throw in The Towel?

A question every struggling artist eventually asks themselves when things aren’t exactly working out is, “When do I throw in the towel, when do I give up?” I’ve asked myself this very question many times over the years and my response as always been, “never. I’m never giving up. I’m going to do this or continue trying to do this till the day I die.” Well, after a decade of struggle and now being no better off financially than I was then (actually including debt, I’m a lot worse off), my resolve is slipping. I watch friends and acquaintances excel in other careers and start families, and I can’t help but wonder where I’d be today if I had chosen a more traditional path after college. Instead, I sit here today, broke, single, questioning my ability as an artist and wondering if I’ll receive a 3 month late editing payment in order to pay this months rent on time.  

I’m not quite ready to pack it in, but for the 1st time ever, I’m seriously questioning the path I’ve chosen.

5 comments:

  1. If it was an easy job to get in to, then everyone would be doing it. I like to the think that these harder times are just more tests to see how much you want something.

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  2. God's favorites always have a hard time, it's our blessing and our curse.

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  3. thanks guys. it's just been a rough couple of months. But I'm soldiering on.

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  4. Jason - every filmmaker goes through those periods - George Lucas, James Cameron, all of them. Its a tough business and your resilience will serve you well going forward. It's clear you have talent, discipline and drive. You just need to keep going forward, no matter how challenging because you want to be in the right place at the right time. That's how it works. You needed this journey. It's what will shape your vision and point of view as a filmmaker. You should never compare yourself to others and their paths. You've chosen the toughest path of all. Just hang in there.

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  5. I'm glad I stumbled upon your blog. I ask myself this question often, and I'm sure it will only be something I continue to do. Keep up your work and don't give up. If everything works out for you, it will make your victory that much sweeter because of the struggle.

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